Suicide...

For a few month, he haven't appeared. My memories started to blur as his existence. There wasn't the moon just stars were shining. I had been staring at dark sky, listening a gloomy sunday and thinking about death. Suddenly Tommy cried "hey don't think about it." "about what" I asked.
- suicide
- why did you thinkI will suicide?
- you seems like that. your eyes were sank into darkness
- how do you know?
- you knew I am dead. so we could see and sense it.
- we?
- I mean. we. ghosts
- oh I see
- never ever think about suicide. It has been said an ultimate crime.
- why? didn't I stop making sins by suicide?
- but your are also stop doing good things for others and dont need to mention about murder.
- sound is agreeable.
- even some murder victim's cases become suicide.
I shocked. what? and I repeat his words "even some murder victim's cases become suicide"?
- yes it is. for example:
One man is going to kill you. You can kill him or he will kill you but you afraid to do sin so I murdered. In this case you die willingly and it is like a suicide.
- that is stupid. how come
- listen you could save your self.
- but if I tried to run but killed. then what will happen? is it a suicide?
- it is not. at least you tried. It is little bit complicated. Think this way. The victim was the Buddha. In this case, the Buddha could neither kill the killer or run away so he is standing there with closed eyes. Ok, it become a suicide.
- it is hilarious.
"whatever I gotago" he said and disappeared.